xtcii

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I find myself feeling rather melancholic, depressed, and quite prone to tears at times. I wonder, if this, this desperate, unbeatable, lingering feeling will ever truly and wholly disappear. My head, it's aching. My fingers, they're shaking. Sometimes - and I know it's wrong - I'm so tired, so simply exhausted and drained, I wonder... I'm so cold, but it's burning; it feels like poison in my veins and I wonder... My eyes, they're burning. My body, it's freezing. And, in the end; when it's over - all over - I don't know how I'll cope. And, I want - more than anything right now - something to just tell me how to fix t

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Day Ten

Day Ten: One confession. 1/ At first, when I saw this task, I wasn't sure whether to admit something cheerful, or something more depressing. They're both pretty stereotypical, so I couldn't decide that way. I thought about it, and seeing as most things today are depressing, I'm choosing the happy (or mostly happy) confession. I have these two people in my life. One boy (teen), and one man. And... they make me happy (yes, I like both of them - do you have a problem with that?). The boy is so adorable! He always looks so cuddly and jokes with me all the time. He makes me laugh like there's no tomorrow, and he has the funniest moments. He's

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Day Nine

Day Nine: Two events/actions that describe your life right now. 1/ Free-falling ; action. I feel like I'm falling with no destination - that it'll never end. It feels like I'm drifting with nowhere to go, but I'll hit rock bottom soon and then it'll all be over. I'm terrified, because all I see ahead of me is darkness and everything's moving so fast (and leaving me behind) and I can't do a single thing about it. But I'm also exhilarated, because I feel so liberated and the wind is rushing by and I don't care anymore what happens when this is over. 2/ Tornado ; event. Everything's getting all mixed up and torn out of their places - everythi

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Day Eight

Day Eight: Three turn ons. 1/ Abs. Muscle tone. -melts- It's just... I don't know, a stereotypical like in guys for females? But I can totally see the reason why. There's (almost) nothing better than seeing a guy shirtless who has amazing (not amazing as in super-buff, but amazing as in drool worthy looks) muscle or who's taking off his shirt - damn, that's hot. And when you can feel it through their clothes - oh God. -insert fan-girl squee here- 2/ A deep/flowing voice. Like abs, it just makes me melt. It's like hearing your favorite singer serenading you (but speaking): freaking incredible. 3/ Awesome hair and/or earrings (not the stret

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Day Seven

Day Seven: Four turn offs. 1/ Unhygienic people. I don't mean you have to use a face-mask or spend hours in front of a mirror, but you could still take a shower everyday, comb your hair in the morning, wear clean clothes... It's not that hard nor does it take that much time - maybe five minutes if you're a speedy shower-taker. The world isn't composed of only you, and you can't roll out of bed in the morning smelling like roses and have everything be perfect. 2/ Incomprehension of social cues. Okay, you don't have to be able to speak telepathically with anyone, but if someone's pissed and wants to be left alone, get a clue. Don't keep talk

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Day Six

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever). ^ it's alphabetical - total order. 1/ Ash C. Is such a stalker. Jokes (kind of), but she's pretty cool. She finds the cheesiest teen-romance books ever, though some of them are good (ex. Hunger Games). She hilarious and makes the funniest/cutest comic-things. She's also fun to talk to - haven't ODed in a long time - and we have the most random moments sometimes. 2/ Ash Y. SO CUTE! And so innocent (or at least she used to be - I've corrupted her...)! She gets excited over the littlest things and makes me laugh with her English skills. I like how she's not afraid to ask for help

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Day Five

Day Five: Six things you wish you'd never done. 1/ Procrastinate like my life depended on it. I've done it so much it's become a habit - it takes me forever to finish a simple assignment, all because of my inability to concentrate and to just do it. 2/ Play MS. Yes, I learned a lot of things, I matured, I changed. I met so many amazing people and made so many incredible friends, but... At the same time, my behavior was impossible and I made some of the stupidest decisions of my life. And in the end, I lost contact with almost all of the people I met... What was it worth? 3/ Keep asking a question. When I don't get an answer, I'm pretty st

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Day Four

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot. 1/ Boys. Well, not quite all boys, nor is it random boys, but the ones that I'm interested in. I think about them - what are they doing? How are they feeling? It's just fleeting thoughts at the most random of moments so I don't really notice it anymore. It's like... a concern I'd show for my friends, for my family, a little bit - but more often. I don't dislike it, but it can be distracting at times (because sometimes I'm thinking of their abs, haha). 2/ School/homework. "I should probably do my homework now..." or "What homework do I have?" or "Okay, I've done this, now I have this and th

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Ice by xtcii, literature

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Ice

If you ripped me apart, What would you find? Bloody organs, one of them a heart Would it be frozen - locked in ice, So, so cold. Cut me open, And tear me to pieces. Tell me, what do you see? Frosted blood, just like snow, Winter in its prime? Break me and shake me, Look at what falls out. Show me this frigidity for what it is, Then let me quietly, and slowly, Freeze in my own dispassion.

L - Laughter by xtcii, literature

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L - Laughter

Have you heard the quote: "Laughter heals the soul"? I have (obviously). I... Want to say that it's true. I don't always believe in the 'supernatural', though I'd really love to, but this isn't really 'supernatural', so I suppose it's alright. The only reason holding me back from actually saying it's true is that when I laughed with you, there was always a bittersweet undertone to my joy. I'm not saying that I didn't enjoy our time together, but I'm saying that I always knew it wouldn't work out, that it would end. But if you took that out, if I just took it for what it was - pure, simple friendship - then you and I could light up the whole

A - Always by xtcii, literature

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A - Always

1. It hit me. It was like... WHAM. Out of nowhere. It felt like a boulder slamming into my gut - that realization, the fact that I would never see you again - no more meetings, no pictures... just, nothing. The idea was quite daunting. I couldn't even wrap my head around the thought, it was so bizarre. Strange. Unexpected (not really). 2. I felt like I could cry a thousand tears, just because. I mean, you were gone. I was scared. Really scared. My heart was pounding, I was shaking, and I just couldn't think straight. It was an all-encompassing fear that drowned everything else out - everything else, after all, was inconsequential compared to

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?

A/N: (Skip past the hyphens if you don't want some explanations/clarifications) The 'we' used in this is a collective for all animals/plants, or Mother Nature and her children (excluding humans). The 'you' is the collective for humans. The not-very-organized/doesn't-make-sense feel to it is supposed to be there, yes. When you've experienced something 'bad', for lack of a better word, the last thing on your mind is focusing disorganized thoughts (for me, at least). I'm not trying to preach/say that I'm exempt from any of my criticisms/say I'm doing something - because I'm not. I'm just putting my words, my human thoughts to voice what I thi

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Artist // Hobbyist // Traditional Art

May 11
Canada
Deviant for 14 years
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"When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile." - Unknown

LIKES:
-Art - appreciating & creating.
-Food/sleep.
-Having fun/enjoying life - the simple things.
-Silver and blue. (Metals and stones, but more so the colors.)

DISLIKES:
-Trolls/arrogance/incomprehension-after-multiple-explanations.
-Being sick.
-Homework. (And bum teachers...)

OTHER:
-I'm a kid - like, not-older-than-18 kid.
-I'm bilingual-and-a-half.
-I'm always tired/bored. Consider it a fact of life.

Favourite Visual Artist

Wenqing Yan (yuumei)

Favourite Movies

Alice in Wonderland, PotC tril., LotR tril.

Favourite TV Shows

Bones, NCIS: LA

Tools of the Trade

Pencil, eraser

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xtcii

Jan 19, 2012

Kay, I'm Done

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I'd really write about something with substance, but that'd be a bland, stereotypical vent about high school drama and crushes, so nah. Last one, I swear. <3 (ballsack)

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xtcii

Jan 19, 2012

having fun

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Hurhurhur. Ok last one. (just kidding, second last.) I want premium membership nowww... But I have no money... Ah, life.

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Jan 19, 2012

JVG

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Ok true, I just wanted to use the skin function. But JVG is back (after the 3 hour crisis of 1/17...) BALLSACK TO THE DEATH. (And 'sides, Sephy's pretty.)

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Thank you so much for the fav!!

Yo!

Sup.

Hahaha, I hope to get more art done. Though I only just realized how sucky they were. . .sigh.

xtcii

Feb 4, 2011

I hope you do too! O: Psht. They're not THAT bad. There are some problems, yeah (like one dude's fingers were really skinny...) but they're not sucky.

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